I saw zille had posted a meme offering to interview her readers, so I signed up to be interviewed! Here are my answers. If you would like me to ask you five questions, feel free to request that in a comment. Of course you’re under no obligation to answer, or to offer to do the same for others.

1. How did you learn all your nifty web-skills?

You know…I’m not even sure! I don’t remember ever taking a single web class, everything has just been self-taught. I’ve used some reference books and sites here and there, but I haven’t done any formal training. And yet I’ve come up with enough to know more or less what I’m doing…I guess it’s just a fun hobby for me, and I’ve picked it up over time.

2. What do you think about when you masturbate?

I can only very rarely masturbate without source material (almost always text-based). When I do, I usually focus on things that have actually happened to me; sometimes I just remember the original occurrence and sometimes I fantasize about the exact same thing happening again.

3. Are you out about all your kinks, or are there some you hold private because you’re afraid they might squick your friends?

I am pretty much out about everything. I’m more concerned with what my parents think than my friends, but there’s very little I keep completely private. As with everything else, I just have a hard time keeping secrets or making things up - what you see is just about what you get!

4. Have you ever done “sex talk” in sign-language?

Hmmm, that could have a couple of different meanings! I’ve never flirted in sign language, that’s for sure. I’ve had to interpret flirtation, in fact just this past weekend I ran into some wordplay flirting and was shocked when I figured out the joke! (”You’ll come later - oh, you’ll CUM later…hey!”) I do have a nice vocabulary from working so much in the leather community - I’m finally no longer fazed when words like “blowjob” come up!

5. What food do you like so much that eating it is almost like sex?

That’s an easy one: peanut butter. I would eat peanut butter straight out of the jar if I could (heck, I used to!). Peter Pan is always reliable because it’s so sugary, but my tip-top absolute favorite is Reese’s. I’ve never bought a jar of it, only had it in cups and the like, but it’s the best peanut butter there is. Mmmmmmmm.

My friend Cricket has a website for a meme/project she started: it’s called Before I’m Gone. I am going to send in this list of ten things I’d like to do before I die. My list is focused on things that are actually achievable now rather than requiring new technology to be developed or for me to have skills I should have started learning as a child.
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We are not leaving for New Jersey tonight after all; there are a few reasons for this but the main one is Veterans Day. Government offices will all be closed, so we would have only tomorrow to get things done. Instead we plan to go up next week. A and I each get three days of bereavement leave from work, so I am thinking we will go up next Tuesday night and stay through Saturday morning (leaving earlier if we’re done earlier).

My father’s brother says the estate is worth $100,000 but I’m thinking it will be less than that. My father had $11,000 in a bank account, a heavily-modified (to hold ham equipment) Ford Escort that’s five or six years old, and his trailer. I did a little poking around and it seems trailers sell for between $8,000 and $30,000 - this one is apparently in bad condition so it will probably be at the lower end of that range. There is a bunch of electronics and ham equipment in the trailer too; no idea how much that’s all going to turn out to be worth. We don’t know who is the beneficiary on the life insurance, and we don’t know if my father had a safe deposit box, so I am thinking all of this will come to about $50,000 at most. (These numbers absolutely stupefy me, I’ve never had that much money.) $5,000 of that will be going to reimburse my father’s brother for the funeral (I’m still disappointed that I wasn’t found in time for that, and I think the delay might have been semi-intentional), and I also plan to give him a portion to thank him for doing the right thing and contacting me. The rest is going to be college money - I never finished, and I’m hoping there will be enough for me to cut work back to part-time and get a degree.

zhai mentioned a rating community to me called and said I might fit in with the group; the only other rating community I’ve experienced is . So I figured I’d give it a try; what follows is my application (including pictures), which was well-received. I’m sharing it here, though, because it’s surprisingly well-written and detailed; it took me a couple of hours this morning, mixed in with other stuff. So if you’ve ever wanted to know about Meredith the Geek, here she is. (Just in case the previous entry wasn’t enough, y’know.)
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I am not wearing makeup, and I haven’t edited out any flaws in my face or anything.

Corset Pose 1, originally uploaded by woofiegrrl.

This is only the second time I’ve tried it on; I can tell that eventually I will be able to take it in much tighter.

Corset Pose 2, originally uploaded by woofiegrrl.

Again, only the second time I’ve worn it; my breasts are actually much bigger than this but the unitard squashes them a bit.

I just realized that you cannot use tags on Tagalag unless you have an account. If you already have a TypeKey account, you can use that to log into Tagalag, but otherwise you have to create one. Nobody has tagged me yet, but if you are inclined to make an account (or login with TypeKey), please do tag me. I’m incredibly curious to see what people will put.

And if you’re not interested in tagging me on Tagalag, please comment with a few tags for me. If you’re not familiar with tagging, tags are a way of classifying something using just a word or two. You’re welcome to give more than one tag, to repeat tags others have already used for me, etc. I just want to know how my friends would tag me!

At the moment I am attempting to juggle social plans for Monday. I have the day off work but A does not, so I am planning to get together with a couple of friends. One is for brunch in Rockville and the other is for lunch at Gallaudet; the problem is that they both want to meet at very similar times! So I am trying to move one up a little and the other down a little and hopefully I can do both, because I really like both people and I would hate to have to change plans altogether because of how rarely I socialize.

I really don’t get out much; any of my local friends can tell you that. I am perfectly happy hiding out at home most of the time; I can go for weeks without doing any real-life socialization. (As opposed to online socialization, of which I do plenty.) I have become a shy person - I wasn’t as a child, but nowadays I don’t know what to say to people half the time and I get embarrassed in social situations. I suppose it might be related to the lack of socialization when I was a kid; for much of elementary and middle school I was primarily a scapegoat because I was two years younger than all my classmates and I think my social development got a bit delayed. (A would certainly agree with this.) When I run into situations where I have two things planned at the same time, I get scared and I want to throw up my hands and cancel everything because it’s just too difficult. That’s certainly a combination of social nervousness and my general anxiety disorder.

Eh, I don’t know. This is mostly just personal musing, I guess, that I’m comfortable sharing with readers.

LJ Interests meme results

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• Sometimes I don’t realize I’m having an “off day” until later in the afternoon. If I only have minimal interpreting to do all morning, I think everything is fine until I start actually working and I realize something is amiss in my brain.
• I get really philosophical once in a while. Things like “is this really life?” I also would never say “I don’t care what other people think” because I do, I absolutely do.
• I have secrets. Secrets from my family and friends, secrets I have told a very few people about, secrets that hurt to keep. I’ve kept these secrets for many years and I will be keeping them for more.
• My self-esteem, on an emotional basis anyway, is really poor. On some level I know I am worth something, but many of my social interactions, inner thoughts, and personal fears are influenced by a painfully poor self-image.
• I have intellectual (mostly!) crushes on so many people, including people who will be reading this, but also people who won’t. I aspire to be like them, I have loads of respect for them, and I want to get to know them better. But I don’t know how.
• My organizational skills suck a lot. I need to reorganize just about everything in my life, physically and in the digital realm.

Added, but not to LiveJournal:

• This is a bit depressing. In my last 15 posts, I have gotten no comments. I got one comment 18 posts ago, another 20 posts ago, and two comments 38 posts ago, but one of those two was my own. Apparently I am not writing anything worth commenting on, or nobody is actually reading this journal.

I am so oblivious! As I was walking in this morning, one of my deaf clients waved me over and introduced me to his sons. (Today is Family Day, there are lots of activities and games and very little work gets done.) I said hello, nice to meet you, etc. and then my client said “You know their mom, right?” No… “You don’t know their mom?” No… “You don’t know who their mom is?” By this point I was thinking maybe he was using some bizarre new sign and wasn’t saying mom at all, because how could I have known who their mom is? So he told me her name…and she’s another one of our deaf clients! In all this time working here I never once connected their last names, even though it’s not a common name. She came up and hugged one of her sons while I told what her husband had just said to me, so we all had a good laugh at how I never realized the two of them were married.