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I am profoundly tired. I am so tired it makes me want to cry. And I did cry last night, over some little thing, just because I was so exhausted I couldn’t handle it. I can no longer concentrate, and my thinking is affected. It’s not that I didn’t sleep last night, because I did, but I still haven’t caught up from the beginning of April. Ever since I pushed myself so hard at LLC, I have been tired, and I can’t keep up. I did it again last weekend and again this weekend, and I’m just tired. I want to take a day off, a day where I can sleep and not do anything and relax and maybe get a couple of chores done but mostly just do nothing. But I can’t, because A pointed out something last night - it’s not appropriate for me to be doing so much community service on the weekends that I have to take a day off from my paying job. So I will have to tough it out, even though I am so tired I genuinely, honestly, want to cry. This coming weekend is going to be more of the same, I’m afraid, because I will be working Friday night and Saturday, and there’s stuff going on Sunday so I might end up there again. I’m going to try not to, though, because I can’t take it anymore…I am so tired.
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You know, I’d have to disagree with: “But I can’t, because A pointed out something last night - it’s not appropriate for me to be doing so much community service on the weekends that I have to take a day off from my paying job.”
It is your vacation or sick leave, you can use it however you want within the guidelines for use at your company! While one’s career should be a rewarding part of one’s life, it shouldn’t be the *only* thing in one’s life, nor even necessarily the most important thing!
You have to take some time for you and get some rest, otherwise you one day will explode - literally. Hope your OK.
I am sorry you are so exhausted 
*HUG* Maybe plan a weekend to do nothing? Two days of pure nothing? Maybe that would help!
Wow! I was reading your previous entries about the leather/bootblack thing. (Heh, I know both as the other one is my little “sister”.)
Whoo, you really do alot for the Deaf community! However, I truly think you need to team up with another so you don’t wear yourself out. Of course, it is a matter of finding another terp who’s willing. (Didn’t there use to be a guy terp (Don? Dave? Dan? a “D” name, whatever happened to him?)?
As for the bar and paying for the terp, I was like WTF! But then again, who exactly has the right/duty to point that out? The Deafies? The terps? Who? It’s like walking on eggshells around that topic.
Although I haven’t been to a (Deaf) leather event in ages, please know that the Deafies truly appreciate you being there to interpret. Meanwhile, do rest up and pamper yourself!