Hi everybody. I’m hanging in there okay. I was very sad at home this morning, and when I got to work I was looking at cremation jewelry so I was still kind of mopey, but I’ve been goofing off for a while so I’m doing okay now. Wu is always somewhere in my thoughts, but I find that I am able to relax at least and not get stressed out. We received the UPS tracking number for the urn this morning, and A brought her to the crematory. They were done with her by a little after 12:30 so A will bring her home tonight. I assume they give us a little box temporarily. I want to keep her up in the bedroom with us for now because that’s where she spent most of her time. I couldn’t do it last night because there was still a cat in the box, but I want her close. I’m so glad I made this decision, I’m glad we’re keeping her in our home. Part of the reason is that she was never allowed outside (she was already declawed in front when we got her) so it would have been weird to put her out there, and eventually she would have been gone. We have buried a couple of chinchillas and a hamster out in the yard, but that spot has been grown over now, and that was several years ago so I doubt there’s even anything left. I don’t want that to happen to my Wubie.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned yet what the hardest part was. When I brought her to the vet Wednesday night, she looked very ill. But they had her in an oxygen cage, so she was breathing much better. When we went to visit with her before they did it, she looked fine. She was alert, she recognized us, she gave me that wonderful picture. Even when they brought her out of the cage and put her on the table, she wanted to jump down from there. It was unbelievably painful to put her to sleep because she looked healthy. If she had been droopy and sick, it might have been a little easier, but she looked like she was ready to come home with us. It just about broke my heart, and I’m going to stop this paragraph before I cry.

I’ve had a stomachache for most of the day and I’m not sure why. It’s not quite nausea, just discomfort. I have been playing online pretty much the whole day. I do have to stay until the end of the day, though, because I can’t pick up my food until 5:00. I used to leave a little early on Fridays but I can’t do that anymore because of the food. By the way, I’m proud of myself for sticking to my diet yesterday - I really wanted to eat crap just for something to do, but I didn’t do it. Also, I lost four pounds last week, but so far this week I’ve only lost half of one. Quicklinks will probably return tomorrow; they auto-posted yesterday but I took them down because it didn’t feel right. Obviously nothing new was added yesterday, so I’ll put the ones that posted yesterday into the auto-post for tomorrow.