I am so not ready to leave for Alaska the day after tomorrow. I have some errands to run around town but I probably won’t get them all done before I leave; one of them is picking up a script for a bone density scan. My doctor is in my town, just a couple of miles away, but I have to have the car home by 6pm tonight so :MK: can take it to work (the feelings of resentment that they won’t adjust schedules are back). I am going to call ahead on the way home and pick up Chinese food for dinner, and then I have to pick up two pairs of shoes from the cobbler. We are going to dye my hair tonight, and I have got to get the dark laundry done so I can finish packing. Plus there is a ton of other stuff that I want to do but it floats out of my head before I get a chance to write down what it is. I am just tragically not ready for this trip. Vacation is supposed to be fun, and I’m looking forward to it, but I’m also freaking out about the things that are not yet done.

Okay, the rest of this might be kind of girly, so I’ll hide it. Why do I need a bone density scan? I don’t think I’ve mentioned this before, but I have been on Depo-Provera since spring 2000. I found out about it from a housemate, and it stops my periods completely which is just heavenly. My periods were never particularly painful or hard, but I have an extreme emotional hatred of them, so stopping them is good. The only problem is that nobody ever told me you should only be on Depo for a maximum of two years, and that beyond that it does bad things to your bones. I’ve been on it for five, so I need to come off it and get a bone density scan. I am probably going to ask for Seasonale, because four periods a year is a helluva lot better than twelve, if I have to have the damn things at all. I haven’t had a period in so long (except for the surprise a couple of months ago when I was apparently late for my Depo shot) that it is no longer a part of who I am.