Now that I have become girl-with-friends, I have also started needing to help everybody. My self-esteem is poor enough that in my head I dream of telling my friends “I’m not worth being friends with, don’t waste your time on me” and for some reason nobody around me seems to believe I could really feel that down on myself. But if one of my newfound friends needs help, I scramble to do everything possible to help them out, just so they’ll think I’m worth keeping as a friend.



Oh, and after developing and then breaking the nervous habit of chewing the flesh off my lower lip, I have picked it up again. This is not good, because it gives me headaches and makes my jaw hurt and tears up my lip and indicates I’m unhappy.